Day 12 of 40

Well I thought on Saturday I posed about my oops on Friday night!
I have gone out a few times with some new friends and I had two beers! Whoops!
So I ran five miles for each by the time I finally managed to get home.


Things have been going well. The snow has been staying away but we got a little bit today. As long as it comes little by little and a few big booms we'll be all set!  


Even though this is the second real snow we've had (yes, we are WAY behind on storms) and I was at CityMarket walking back to my car when no less than three people nearly hit me by not paying attention. Everyone has to relearn how to drive in this stuff every year.. test out new tires and what not. Or just be plain stupid.


I was at the Market getting my pity party menu ingredients together :)  My favorite cava and some mashed potatoes.  Due to my joint disease limiting potatoes out of my diet can really help but man I needed them!
I really miss my best friend in St. Louis. No matter what I do and how much I step out to be the bigger person by apologizing, saying I miss her and her husband, nothing seems to be good enough for her. She has a baby now so I doubt she thinks about it much but now that Eli is over seven months old and I haven't met him or talked to his mom since he was born.. sigh.  It is also more frustrating because another friend Eliza caused a silly argument with has recently gotten Eliza or her craziness with their friendship so they've been talking. I had told Kristin of Eli being born a few months after and Kristin had no idea... so I guess that spurred her on. Who knows,  even though Eliza swore she'd be so different from my other friends who had kids I think she knows she was a TADDDD(to the 8th power) crazy just before and is probably embarrassed of her actions.  I just wish she'd put the past behind. We both said some things that weren't nice but probably needed to be said. It's time to move forward but I can't force it until she's ready which may be never. It's just frustrating.  Thinking about her makes me miss the friends I CAN and DO talk to online but never get to see. Sometimes it's just lonely missing friends and wanting them to be a part of your life. This is more apparent as I just spend 2 1/2 weeks with Daryl.  Between him and the people I spent time with over the summer like Kim/Peyton and Omar in Indy... man you really learn who your real friends are.  Daryl is a college kid with a part time job that pays 10 bucks an hour but he'd easily give far more than others I passed by this summer and I'd do the same for him. I'd probably start with a sleep clinic to get him to stop snoring :)
I also miss Hannah (of the UK in Dubai), Andrea (UK), Ale (peru), Daniel (Peru), Jarred (VA), Terri (NC), and so many more!
I should stop complaining because that list isn't even complete and I realize I'm damned lucky!  
I have one friendship that I want to repair that I let crazy ex Aaron ruin.. but that will take years of work and trust. The basics are still there though... and that's something... something called hope!


Till tomorrow... day 13~!  Becky boo arrives December 7th!


Oh--- side note:  Why do men have problems saying No, or giving some type of response. It frustrates me to NO END when men like to ignore a text or a call rather than deal... and over simple things! BAH! 
:)