All at Sea

I'm all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
Forgot my roots
If only for a day
Just me and my thoughts sailing far away
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to
All at sea
I'm all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
I sleep by myself
I drink on my own
Don't speak to nobody
I gave away my phone
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to
All at sea
Now I need you more than ever, I need you more than ever, now
You don't need it every day
But sometimes don't you just crave
To disappear within your mind
You never know what you might find
So come and spend some time with me
We will spend it all at sea
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to
All at sea


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This is and forever will be one of my favorite songs; favorite lyrics, favorite songs by Jamie Cullum.


The song speaks of a time when he'd just been out of a relationship and was happy to be in his own company. Before, when, and after that was me the song has always spoken to me.


It was probably a year or year and a half before I discovered Jamie that I first went to England.  I still vividly remember the first time I enjoyed my own company. REALLY enjoyed it.
Previously I had always felt a bit on the outside. The typical phrase would be 'trying to fit in.' However, I was always aware I was somewhat on the outside.
That first trip to the UKGB with Lee was so much.  I had never drank before, I had never been overseas, I was 19 nearly 20.. it was a lot.  
However, my most intense memory from that trip was realizing I was different and after a few days.. I found a cliff in Scotland & was looking out without worrying about trying to manipulate my sense of humor for others. I was, in essence, just 'there'.. it was elemental. I was far more comfortable in my own company and it was one of those---MOMENTS in life.  


Since then, I have really enjoyed travel and life on my own. I have loved the friends I've made along the way. I've learned from the people I have left behind and those I have yet to leave behind.  


All in all-- I enjoy my peace and time to myself.  


Sometimes I really want to take a cruise so I can spend some time alone, lean just a bit too far off the edge of a rail to feel the breeze and mist on my face and .... be me alone and free.


I'm all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
Forgot my roots
If only for a day
Just me and my thoughts sailing far away
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to
All at sea
I'm all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
I sleep by myself
I drink on my own
Don't speak to nobody
I gave away my phone
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own